it all about me.

boyfriend when she's lonely

2008-11-06T01:08:00.003+08:00

hi all.
i'm back again. all stressed up.
just came back from work.
stupid cathay. extend the show time till 12am last show.
because of secondary school n JC now having their vacation.
n its also because of many blockbuster movie coming out soon.

have not eaten my breakfast, lunch n dinner.
freaking hungry now. but there's nothing to eat here. dammit.
wad i eat today was 1 curry O n sardine O from the OCK.
everything was so busy at work. come on ppl. its wednesday not saturday.

i tink im gonna fall sick soon.
still typing out my report now.

its hard to please ppl.
plus frens is way much important to them.
when a little favor was so hard to do.
when lonely, then find me.
when with frens, just forget everything.
msging all the 1 or 2 word msg. example YUP2.
go n save ur FREE SMS den..
thanks.

haiss...

2008-10-05T03:53:00.007+08:00

im down for the moment.
im totally upset now.
everything i did was useless.
just one word to describe everything.

DISSAPOINTED!!

wont be updating my blog.

till duno when.

1st day raya

2008-10-02T14:34:00.005+08:00

yesterday was the 1st day of raya. how i feel? hmmm...tired plus sleepy? hahaha. anyway, im family theme was green. which turn out that my mom bought brown instead. n last part my father bought brown too. haiyooooooooo... turn out only me n my siblings wore green yesterday.
the most important thing about hari raya was seeking for forgiveness from someone older den u. example ur grandparents, parents, ur bro,sis etc.

so many ppl came to my house. till i duno where should i sit. in my own house? hahahaha.. even outside my house there's lots of ppl. ard 8-9 family came at one time. so wat do u tink? hahaha.. it was meriah of cos. den become so kecoh. even we dont have enough ICE!! n i need to drive ard tampines searching for ice. wad the heck. it was fun though.

so lets just let the pics do the talking.

my family. with my nenek.
the NUR SYA...n wina was the most excited.
the family.
seeking forgiveness from ur family member.
awww...so touching. =))

my kak sedare n her family. n thats my anaks sedare.

thats only some part of the house. ok i know my house quite big for a flat.

just lepak with my cousin fatin.

just camwhore.

lastly. SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!

preparation. CHECK!

2008-09-29T01:28:00.003+08:00

left with 2 days to prepare for hari raya on wednesday. im half way done. spending my whole sunday doing spring cleaning the whole house. i mean real clean. doing some touching up to the wall ( balas balek jer. not changing new colour. ) . putting new curtain for my house and of cos its not spring cleaning if there isnt any furniture moving all over my home.

ok im the one who moved the whole thing in my house. not my mom. so? hahahhaa... nahhh i just like to move things around to make my house look bigger, more spacious, more ppl can be sumbat with feeling any unconfortable. hahaha..

anyway, i duno how many roaches n cicak man i killed today. call me PEST BUSTER! hahaha. really irritated by many pest in my house. nie la susah rumah tingkat 1. haiyooooooooo.. n the lizard like to shite ard. especially behind every photo frame in my house. so if i saw any, they die. i will really make them shite. hahahahhaah... sounds cruel. but really! angry sia.

now i can really breath in clean air, all the dust so call gone. with the green apple smell all ard the house make me smile jer. n left with my bed sheet which i tink i will change it by tomoro.

im working tomoro morning plus there's staff meeting after that at 6.30? they crazy or wad? we still need to breakfast. hello? are u ppl crazy? or just need a big punch on the face from me? bugger! so maybe after dat im goin home straight finishing everything. sorry zul can follow u to geylang.

n i bought everything for raya. songkok, capal, samping match with my green baju kurung plus yesh i bought cream baju kurung. to match with my sayang. with her following me to geylang just now. even though it was a FULL CROWD! n we went there ard 9? n i send her back home ard 12. n she working tomoro morning. thanks eh dear! i love u a lot. later i kiss kiss u k? hahahahah...

i should be gone now. im working at 10am tomoro. ciaos.

raya sudah mari!!

2008-09-26T00:47:00.003+08:00

ok now. as its 5 more days to raya. i change my blog song to this raya song from my beloved siti nurhaliza. still sayang same die! hahaha.. with her voice. n making the song so damn touching. so lets listen to the song everyone. the title of the song is AIRMATA SYAWAL. hahaha...

so how's everyone preparation? hmm fit's wearing blue. zul/hana wearing black. erma wearing green. sebok jer! hahahhaa..nahhh kiding. mine still nice though. hahaha. me n azreen? after lots of discussion, we gonna go for cream this year. why? ask her? cos her yellow is so BRIGHT! if i wear, surely look like abangLA. eeeeeeeee. n her orange is actually RED!!! freaking bright RED! so next time let me choose the colour n u follow ok. fair enough? haiyoooooooooooooo...

4 days straight working at cathay. n tomoro will be the last day of the week before my 2 off day. SAT n SUN!! woooohoooooo... plus hopefully my pay already in. * pray hard!! n to myra, i totally duno when is our pay. some say sat, but some say monday? alah pening la awie. cey feeling2 awie kejap. wooooohooooooooooooooo...

4 more days to puasa n dats it! ramadhan already gone. so to anyone yg tak dapat puase penuh, pandai2 la bayar yeeee...jangan tunggu sampai next ramadhan plak kan. ok now everything mix together. my malay, english. haiyooooooo.. nvm better i guess? kan kan. my eng is sucky too. hahahaha...

cathay raya will be on 12? hmmm.. i'm worried i cant drive that day. cos i tink my family gonna use the car. how? nak sewa? sape nak share2? can? hahaha.. atleast okey la. ard $70 per day? if cant get a car, den should i back off? hmmmm... how da?? ( indian style)

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PANTUN HARI RAYA

hari raya menjelma kini;
ramadhan yg mulia berlalu pergi.
disini inginku ingati;
berbelanje tu jangan la sesuka hati.

baju kurung berwarna warni;
ada yang tempah, ada yang beli.
ditempah sebelum puasa lagi;
bile dapat, ketat sana longgar sini.

hari raya tanda kemenangan;
kemenangan puasa genap sebulan.
yang puasa penuh syabas ku ucapkan;
yang mana tinggal, jgn action2 lupakan.

berpusu-pusu ingin ke geylang;
jgn lupa membeli deng-deng.
yang couple2 pakaian sepasang;
hari raya mcm nak pergi bersanding.

20 jari-jari ku susunkan;
jari kaki dan jari tangan.
salah silap harap dimaafkan;
maklum lah saya nie manusia serba kekurangan.

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raya coming...

2008-09-18T01:45:00.002+08:00

hey people. im back again with my update now. Raihana aka KAK G-STRING da marah. hahaha..ya ya i will update now. so its my off day today. i thought of just slacking at home doing nothing. but it's just too boring i guess.

i on my radio. n the first song i heard was LAGU RAYA!! woooohoooooo. n i just realized that today was the 17th day of ramadhan. OMG!! soon it will be raya. so i began doing spring cleaning alone at home. ALONE!!!! i bring down all the curtain. now my home look totally naked. hahaha. but nevermind. putting up new curtain next week. n i clean the window. which im always the one doin it. climbing the ladder n stuff. look like some bangla.

i took out so call the " garden hose " n spray the window from outside. if some ppl duno, my house is at level 1. hahaha.. n many ppl walking by was like looking at me. with my singlet n short. do i look like bangla to them!! blooody pisang!! n some aunty was like " wahhh!! lap tingkap eh. rajin nye. " so damn paisey already. haiyoooooooooo!! im just " anak contoh " wad. hahaha..

anyway. why my pay day is sooooooo late. 27th sept. so long rite? i need to buy stuff for my raya. haiyooooooooooo... im so damn broke. i need my pay fast! please cathay please.

n my result already out. the good news is that, i pass my maths. i get B+ for it. n thats the last maths i will take for the rest of my life now. but the bad news is that, i failed my ICAPP. stupid fool! the module that i hate most! now i need to take supp paper for it. its on this coming monday. n i haven start studying. damn!! 8 topics that i need to start all over again. hopefully i will pass this time.

so wad colour u guys wearing this year? im wearing green. lime green. or just green la. why green? dont ask me please. i just follow my family. 2 weeks more to raya. im so abit excited. cos i dont need to wake up early morning to sahur plus dont need to fast. hahahaha.. nahhh. actually me n gf turning 12mth soon. yeah 1 yr. after all we been thru.

lastly. im so in love with my azreen. hahaha.

im down for the moment.

2008-09-03T01:55:00.003+08:00

Ramadhan is here again. 2nd day of fasting month is over now. i just came back from work n cant sleep due to almost half of the day just slacking b4 i went to work. everythings seems alright. everything seems normal. just someone else change. drastic change i duno why. but she's happy with it i guess. so let her be n i just go with the flow. dont want to skip my fasting month. as it only came once a year. but many just dont realise it.

Well its the 3rd year im fasting with cathay peeps. wow time really past very fast w/o me notice. how my preparation for raya? nahhh.. not the time yet. still for 28 days to go? must start counting down now.

n did i tell u its my semester break now? wooooohoooooo... a huge relieve i guess. hopefully i pass all my module. which i think i do badly for my Intergrated Circuit ( ICAPP ). lets pray hard now...

how i spend my holiday? hmmm... by workind myself out at cathay. so if u guys want to find me, i will be quite often there now. doing closing from tues-sat. yeah i will break my fast at work. n weekend is spare for my family. yum yum.. want to lose weight this ramadhan. how? any suggestion? hahaha.. please dont tell me to just eat " KURMA" n "MILK" for sahur. u will see my face like dying waiting for breakfast. i think i just need to eat less. n i really want to be tall like IRWAN!!! so envy that tall guy. haahhaha... siao.

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we are turning 11mth this friday.
i dont think she remember.
but never atleast i do.
hmmmm....

i still remember last ramadhan.
is the time we get really close.
how i wish i could get the same moment.
but everything change.

she's busy with her poly thing.
n of cos her full time job.
i dont blame her either. i understand.
hopefully she's happy over there.

lastly,
happy 11mth in advance Azreen.

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to others,
Happy Ramadhan.
" puase, jgn tk puase"

Scars

2008-08-13T21:25:00.004+08:00

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

And my weakness is that I care too much

My scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed 'caues you came around

Why don't just go home

'Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

You're making me insane

All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

And my weakness is that I care too much

And our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once

Against my own advice

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That you're drowning in the water

I tried to grab your hand

Compassions in my nature

Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I could say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I could say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my open, I sew myself shut

And my weakness is that I care too much

And our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, sew myself shut

And my weakness is that I care too much

And our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

deep inside

2008-08-03T04:11:00.005+08:00

im sad.
im upset.
i don't know how to describe my feelings.
after all i've done.
after all i care.
but still...
im not good enough.
im really sorry.
im not perfect.
im a nobody now.

catching up

2008-07-21T02:18:00.006+08:00

im still awake. trying hard to study my teleprin.

my quiz will be tomoro. first lesson some more.

done with chapter 4, left chapter 5.

which i will try to finish it soon enough.

this week is totally hectic.

so many things to do in just a short time.

many project due coming.

n still havent start on my speech powerpoint.

which i tink i will start doing it tomoro.

lastly, my love just came back safely. alhamdulilah.

but sadly she never buy for me anything. ishhh!!

n i totally miss her. my fon is soo mute when she's away.

hopefully will meet her soon. love u!

heyy people. try this.

you will be quite amaze by this.

trust me.

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sadness

2008-07-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

life aint that easy.

especially when u want to make someone happy.

trying so very hard.

but sometimes the outcome will be different.

we just need to bare with that.

doing something special,

to show how much u care.

but end up otherwise.

this is not a complain.

but kinda upset.

i just have to accept it.

maybe thats how people say thanks.

after u help them n sacrifice ur own time.

but its fated to be that way.

sometimes i think i live for ppl to put their anger on.

as far as possible i will try to bare with it.

but i still do have feeling.

im still human.

qoute from akon " blame it on me. "

nothing to do

2008-07-02T12:56:00.004+08:00

so im just back home for an 1hr break.

i will need to be back to school by 2 for my cds.

wasting my time only this public speaking.

which will end around 4pm.

den straight to work. siian.

thats life i guess. haiyooooo

so today! its been 1 week since i saw my "manje".

really missing her now.

hope she felt that way to.

miss u a lot dear!

n will always love u.

here i end

concession

2008-06-30T20:32:00.005+08:00

so i was finally over for farouk.
cos that friday was his last day working at cathay.
now waiting for time to serve his National Service at pulau tekong as a soldier. hahaha.
farouk soldier? hmmm..quite funny i think.
hopefully he will change his attitude. & become more MANLY.
stop being a sissy n gay boy with zul! stop it sak.

and as part of the concession team.
really enjoy working with that boy.
n please do come n visit us with your botak head. hahaha..
zul will definitely going to miss him.
cos they are gay!! gay shite suckaaA!!
have a great time to u bro..

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anyway time past really fast.
my 1st week of school already over.
nothing much happen.
just a bit stress up catching up.
2 weeks from now will be my quiz for all the subject.
left 7 weeks of school only.
yeah i know its quite fast.
but i too want to finish this semester asap!
cos i dont want to do anymore maths!! haiyoooooo stress!!

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so 5 more days.
we will turn 9mth.
9mth together with her.
but cant celebrate it with her.
cos im working that day.

its been 5 days since i last saw her.
which i duno when we gonna meet again.
hope she's fine. starting her new job tomoro.
wishing her all the best.
may we meet again, i duno when.

will always love u.
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Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating,

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,

Wondering if it's me you're seeing,

And then I kiss your eyes,

And thank God we're together,

I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever.

story about her.

2008-06-25T01:09:00.013+08:00

So how should i begin this entry. as u all ppl duno, it has been months since i wrote something on my blog. due to lots of many respond, n of many reader, let me start again. so i think i should start by introducing myself again? hmm.. nahhh how bout introducing someone close to me? yeah of cos. she's my gf. she always wanted me to write something about her. so here i go sayang!!

OK! this is my girlfriend. her name is AZREEN. was brought up by a good family lead by MR JOHARI. thanks MR JO.! love u! but i love ur daughter more! hahaha.. anyway she has been a good gf to me. but there's sometimes she can turn to something else. no of cos not like INCREDIBLE HULK. but cool she still sweet i still love her. with all my heart! cey cey!

we have been together for almost 9 months now. see date on the right of my blog. count it urself. look at the top pic, how "MANJE" can she be rite? awwwww...but sometimes she can be soooooo the action kind. dont even want to smile on when i took her pic. hmmm.. let me find something.

tadaaaaa!!! see sometimes she just dont want to smile to the camera! hahaha.. nahhh! i still love her! dun worry k sayang. anyway that pic was taken during my holiday. can see the wire behind? that is sky ride. just pay $10 for a person. for 1 sky ride and 1 luge. wat is luge? it is something like go cart but w/o engine. yar my gf look someone who scared to ride all this, but she manage to do it okey! rite dear? cos i force her too!!

see how fast she go? so daring enough yar. so life is too short! we must enjoy it to the fullest. cos she sure did. her facial expression tell it all! hmmm dats why, she is so irrisistable! awwww. such a darling. hahaha...

so how i really into her? hmmm nothing much. her smile, her look, the way she dress up, the way she treat me, the way she respect me, the way she taking me for who i am. lastly the way we love each other. everyday is a brand new day for us. even though we never meet everyday like some other couple out there. our love for each other remain unchanged. hopefully by all the missing, our love will eventually grow strong.

yes! i began to love donut since i we became couple. but the funny part is that i already began to love her before we even get together. i really to thank god cos i finally found what i've been looking for all this while. being with you is what i always dream off. here i express it all.

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kept finding love;

nothing is there for me.

kept giving out love;
nothing came back to me.

saw this lady pink;

cant stop staring at her.

wanna start with a wink;

thats not the way to win her.

tried giving her red rose;

maybe she prefer that way.

she smell it using her nose;

im worried, feel like running away.

all the love already expressed;

only left with her answer.

she completely impressed;

with my patient waiting for her.

loving u, i always do;

missing u, i always do.

leaving u, i dont dare to;

cos it too me long to get to know you.

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here i end my entry.

love u azreen

start a FRESH

2008-06-23T01:17:00.003+08:00

so after quite a while i keep my blog untouch, let me now began a fresh. so how the brand new look for my blog. all thanks to my dearest azreen. who change my blog skin for me when i was away playing my soccer. haha. im not bad. just that she's bored & im giving her something to do.anyway thanks eh sayang. i treat u popeyes next time. lets go to the singapore flyer!

anyway many things happen this few months. with me having my term break for 2 weeks which officially over now. and i can say that i need more holidays!! goshhhhh... 2 weeks is like so freaking fast. what i do during my term break? hmmm.. project.working like crazy. meeting my gf. we went to sentosa. really enjoy there. but its overrr!!! haiyooo.

can i dont go to school tomoro? extra one day of holiday? n goin to get my result! shite! totally forget about that. i think i did not good? hahaha.. lets just pray hard.

so people who always visit my blog. thanks for the support. and asking me to start blogging again. ok im still waiting for euro champion match. ESPANA vs ITALY. kick off at 2.45. my prediction will be 2-1 to ITALY. cos i think they already get their momentum.

be back tomoro with latest update. ciaos.
love u AZREEN!

its ME

2008-06-22T16:56:00.000+08:00

Hello sayang! I am done with your blogskin. So please, PLEASE UPDATE!

K dah.

From your kind, hardworking, sweet girlfriend. Awwww.... Love you!

~Nur Azreen =)

ps: i love u

2008-04-11T00:26:00.005+08:00

ok first thing first. after long waiting. finally we have actually turn 6 last sat. i know its kinda late but due to my tight schedule and my so call "MALASNESS" i did not blog. hahaha. she treat me swensen last sat cos she receive $400 from CDC for her ITE result. hmmm. not bad. so i force her to treat me. hahaha. ok im bad. i know. but tak selalu kan dapat belanje dari matair sendiri. tol tak? hahaha...

and so for this week. monday was my working day which im not supposed to work. cos i need to cover for a staff who is not feeling well that day. so nothing much to say.

but on the tuesday, the cathay ppl plus my gf, we went to seoul garden. den we went to watch Flood at Cineleisure. which i thing was not a good movie. too many talking and less action. and at the same time all of us was really full. like fit,zul n farouk was sleeping in the theater. im like what the hell sia. hahahaa... plus me there's actually 12 of us. lucky we know saha. so he book for us in advance. fuh~~ thanks man. we really make the theater like ours. with our voice. jus imagine. haiyoo... hahaha...

after movie me n gf went home straight. i knew the other wont go home straight. so we left. and gf got so call "due date". she will feel sleepy after 9. haiyoooo.. hahaha.. so i send her home den home for me.

for wed. work opening that day. n meet gf after work. she went shopping wif her bestie. where her fren went off for work. so we wad met n lepak2 wif me drink Mcdonals chocolate milkshake. n her soya bean with pearl from Mr Bean. i dun like soya bean from Mr Bean. YUCKKS!!

next week will be my last week of holiday. which my school will offically starts on the 21st. haissss. hopefully my timetable wont be like shite. so i can actually set time for my gf. n if not we goin to meet like 1 day per week. n if only we got chance to meet i guess. haissss.. * really pray hard *. so this week, there no more meeting with gf. will only meet her next week. sad rite? but wad to do. both are working hard to earn for ourselves.

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some people did ask me how we actually manage to stay strong together. even though we didnt meet n talk on fon often. but to me its really bout the trust u put on ur partner. without trust, i think we really cant work out. n we must also understand each other situation.

and if you get a chance to meet, spend the time with ur partner wisely. treasure every mins you spend with them. show ur partner how u really miss them and things will be great. enjoy every moment with ur partner to the fullest. smiles =))

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lastly, ps: i love u .

sentosa island

2008-03-27T00:45:00.004+08:00

i am supposed to blog about this yesterday night. but i was just too tired.

so i decide to blog about it today. & not forgetting the pics which was taken there.

thanks to my "its not that hard to imagine" samsung camera.

and qama's "new 8.1 megapixel family" canon camera. hahaha..

ok i know i type alot on my blog. but atleast i do blog rite? =))

so i will try to blog less n let the picture do all the talking.

come lets start the ball rolling now...

we went there by the newly build "LRT" i think la.

this was the view we saw from Vivo City to Sentosa Island.

so who did i go with?

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are we sweet or wad? hahaha..of cos with my azreen.

& she did not wear her tudung. not my new gf please ppl.

i know she look different.

she just want to suit with the BEACH kinda thing.

so we went there with...

this crazy bunch of people.

although it was only 6 of us. (with some last min back out from some ppl)

we still kecoh & enjoy ourself. you guys ROCK MY SMELLY SOCK!! haha...

we did many activities there like...

farouk telling people his lamest joke. random pic showing my MUSKLE. =)playing "tai-tee" & some crazy game like Police and Theif using the cards.

i know some ppl know what that game is.

and we also play "rumah dayak" or same as "rounder".

we play it for 2 round and cannot stand the heat. damn...

we all went for swim. the ladies for sure dont want to be wet. but...still they're wet. thanks to me! hahaha.

qama i wrestle her to the sea.

& to azreen im really sorry. cos i carry her n she too get wet.

i already make a promise wad? remember? hahaha..

after that we all make our own sandcastle.BATWOMAN qama making "woman with sharp Jugs". me doing some VOCANIC shape.zul digging a hole for him to shite!and lastly hana trying hard to be creative about it. kekeke..

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with all so tired. but we all really enjoy it.

still remember what farouk said. "thanks ah wan relax sia aku"

means he did enjoy himself there.

so to those who did not join us. sorry man! hahaha..

all of us feel so different...

qama - face so the kilat.

farouk - face so dead

zul - bored & feel like staying there.

hana - goin home with heavy beg (i duno why?)

azreen - with red skin after her swim.

me - with sunburn on my back which look like im wearing a sportsbra.

dammit! i really learn my lesson. not to wear single at beach.

so lets remember this day till...

2008-03-21T03:50:00.004+08:00

just came back from work. i just need to share this man. goshhh!!

its weird that i blog at this time. but actually i will la...

firstly.
my shift just ended. and we are goin down to our cab.so one of our supervisor drove her car. KIA PICANTO. very small2 car. one of my work mate decide to drive her car down from her carpark. he actually dont have a licence but he's waiting for his Traffic Police Test. he ask me,farouk n zul to follow. ok la sure we follow. before he even start the engine, i ask him " kau bleh bwk tak? tak confident aku bwk? " which means " you got confident to drive? if not i take over. " but her replied that he drive before. so ok la i just remain seated at the back seat.

i saw there's no gap for him to move front.cos there's a piller infront. which means he need to reverse first. i thought he knew what he was doin. so he just go to the first gear n with his so much acceleration and the car move. than came a loud " BANG!!! " i was like HOLY SHITE!!! he bang the piller! to make the matter worst, the left front tire flattened. i was totally impressed!!

lots of scratch marks plus quite big dent on the left side. n last part, i'm the one who need to change the tire cos he dont know how to change tire. GOSHHH!!!

if i was my car, i will be totally angry sia. so to people out there with car, dont let people with licence drive ur car. totally serious matter sia!!

secondly.
my maths supp paper was just now. i think i can do it. so now i think i can really enjoy my holiday i guess? woohooooooooooo.!! feel great sia!

thirdly.
so who wanna join go sentosa on this tuesday?
when was the last time i went there? 1 year ago i guess? wahhh!!!
so cant wait to enjoy beach wif my dear azreen. sayang u la can? hehehe...

so lastly. just a random pic taken in the train on our way to Vivo that day. just to say i really love her. eventhough we only spend once a week together, i really treasure the moment i spend with you. cos every mins with you is so precious to me. missing u always princess...

2008-03-18T22:56:00.005+08:00

im going through lots of dilemma right now. so what should i do? to just let her enjoy herself. haiss. is it a wrong to like stop her? as in tell her not to come back late. im just worry about her safety. isnt that wad every bf will do? haisss. but to her im just being like her ex. trying to mess up her life.

n i noe she dont like me to complain on my blog. but this is where i always express my real self. i dont really go around telling people how i feel deep inside. even to my gf. cos when i express how i feel, she will think that im too much. stop her in everything she want to do. n worst thing is that when she herself told me im being like her ex. haisss...

wad should i do? being open n just see wad ever she do? yeah i can do that for sure. but my feelings for her will change when time comes by. and at the point of time, every single things just lost by the wind. i dont want that to happen. what i want is every mins, my feeling for her became stronger.

i want to cherish every moment with her. i want everything we do cause no harm to each other feelings. cant she just know abt that? taught me of "read between lines " but she aint do it. why oh why? why must this always happen to me?

if i cant stop her. cant say anything. den i think i should not be her bf. cos its like me helpless. cant even do anything. so the thing for being her bf is just meeting her once a week, we watch movie, go have our dinner & go home. thats it. and the rest of the days we are just smsing. not knowing wads happening out there on her side. why oh why??

im so damn stress up. need time for myself. feel like driving alone in the car n speed as fast as possible. maybe i should do that soon...

with my maths supp paper on thurs, i just dont want this block my mind. i feel like an arse rite now. i should stay strong i guess. so ppl out there. wad should i do? still stop n guide her all along. or just keep quiet n being stupid about it & keep every pain inside me...

i stop here.
& to her, im sorry if i complain on my blog.
done.

2008-03-17T23:21:00.004+08:00

let me start vacuuming this blog here. cos someone says its getting dusty. =)
things getting tougher each day. things getting complicated every moment.
im still standing strong though. this is just because of my stupid maths result. ishh!!
now i need to take the supp paper for my maths 2 which happen to be this thurs.
need to start study starting for tomoro... *boredom*

so wednesday plan goin to sentosa. but it is not confirm yet.
cos many pple just dont want to be part of it.
even though they were the one who want me to plan of sth for us to chill together during this holidays.
*miang sungguh orang-orang seperti mereka ini.*
so i think i just spend my time with my deary den..

now my life is just work work work...
need more money. for wad? duno... to buy more clothes i guess!
want to spend time wif her. but she's too work all the way.
add up she just finished her higher nitec course. n waiting for her result.
so we still will meet like once a week. i guess? hmmmm...

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inside my heart, there's you.
in my mind, there's you.
behind every smile, there's you.
cause you're my only one...

no one love u, like i do.
no one care for u, like i do.
no one miss u, like i do.
cause you're my only one...

no matter what,
no matter how,
you're always the one for me...
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2008-02-27T00:16:00.004+08:00

As promise, how should i start this...
I MY EXAM IS OVER!!! OVER!!!

so for now my holidays officially starts. yessa!! must really enjoy this holiday for good. cos i think i really deserve on long rest till 21 April. yeah! its about 2 month break. dun be jealous yeah to anyone who still schooling for now. need to wake up early morning n catch the stupid crowded bus. which i will always sit at the bus stop n wait for a empty bus. even though im late for class? hahaha...

ahhh! stop talking bout school. cos its vacation time. can work more, sleep more n hopefully meet my gf more often too. she's always busy with things ard. n still counting down for her examination. which to me its like totally over. i repeat OVER! hahaha. damn im so happy now. after all the projects,assignment,quizes,labtest n exam. my 1st year poly ended. quite fast the time past by.
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i just cant understand why...
we cant live w/o fights over small matter?
we cant live w/o misunderstanding?
we cant smile everyday & feel free?
our past will come back easily to our mind?
girls will be angry when their period come?
people always put anger on me?

can anyone just answer my question? so stressful!!
im in a happy mood but all this destroy everthing.
ishhhh!! alamak! kasi marah jer ah. hahaha..
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to her.
memang benar org kate;
tanpa cinta, siapalah kite.
ada juge yg berkate;
tanpa perselisih faham, bukan cinta namanye.

eratkan cinta bukan sekejap saje;
ia bermakan bulan lamanye.
jgn lah kite musnahkan ia;
ilang lah ia, tiada gunanye.

iklas dari hati inginku katakan;
dirimu seorang yang ku rindukan.
tidak byk ku pinta darimu kekasih hati;
hanya ku pinta cinta sejati.

tidak akan ku tulis namamu di tepi pantai;
kerna ombak akan menghilangkan nya.
akan ku ukir ia di dalam hati;
hanya boleh dihilangkan oleh kuasa NYA.

ku harap cinta mu ikhlas;
tiada bohong disebaliknya.
ku harap jua cintaku terbalas;
ku tahu cinta tidak boleh dipaksa.

2008-02-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

firstly.
happy birthday to me;
happy birthday to me;
happy birthday to syazwan.
happy birthday to me.
muahahha...

ok now i'm already 20 years old. no more teenage for me. no more TEEN. haiyaaa.. feel so old now. so i need to focus on my goal n think bout wad i want in life. must be more matured in my thinking, the way i talk to ppl n be matured in everything i guess. n lastly must still be the jovial me! hahahaa....

ok my celebration actually began on last sunday 10 feb 2008. which was plan by my deary azreen n my gay buddy farouk which i totally duno about. haiyoooo... i've been punk by them. they actually plan 1 week in advance n keep that unknown from me. celebrate it at cashbox karaoke studio. really thankful to all of them cos u guys really make it a memorable b'dae for me. thanks guys! WA LOVE SAMA U ALL. muacks!

so now lets the pic tell the story of my 3 days b'dae celebration.

thats after all the surprises. with my sayang by my side. love her!

where my SUMBANG voices start. hahaha

eagerness waiting for our turn to eat. yumyum at Sakura FarEast.

my sweet2 azreen. look so tired after all the efford she put in for me.

thats why i love her so much!! thanks dear...

and the second day of my celebration is with azreen.

only both of us. we celebrate it at vivo city.

we watch 27 dresses. 4.35 show. n sat 2nd row from the front. hahaha...

with she wearing her fav. HOT PINK...

n me wearing my fav. black white outfit.

i wore casual smart for the day,

cos she want me to see me wearing smart shirt for my b'dae celebration

so lastly. the 3 day or actual day of my b'dae.

i celebrate it wif my family member.

mum bought ice-cream cake from swensen.

n mini cut cake n eat together at home for my celebration.

small cake for the small me. haha.. actually 20 not 2 years old eh. hahaha...

wishes were made b4 the i blew off the candle.

and this the things i got for my b'dae.
nike watch - from my mum & dad
volcom n adidas bag - from my dear azreen.
i still think its too much from her lah. haiyaaaa...

one of my wish is to be happy with this girl here.
i dont know why i love her soooo muchhh..

i want to thank everyone for all your wishes.

and to my close cathay frens. thanks for lovely memories u gave me.

to my only dear.

after 3 years not celebrating with anyone special, u made my 20th b'dae special.

will keep this in my heart. and for u. i will always love.

hope we will be together all the way.

and making sure no one else is there to stop our love for each other.

n u will always remain in my heart.

thanks everyone.

2008-02-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

Insan Istimewa

detik bermula suatu cinta;
mesra nya ia sungguhlah indah.
berilah ia sepenuh jiwa;
jgn sekali merosakkannya.

rasa rindu bila tidak bertemu;
bagai pungguk rindukan bulan.
pabila berjumpa senyum selalu;
walaupun hanya untuk sesaat.

jika sayang katakan sayang;
usah simpan didalam hati.
jgn sampai terbayang2;
tidur malam termimpi2.

percaya cinta masih ada;
tapi jgn mempermainakannya.
hati yg ikhlas sukar dicari;
kalau ia pergi diri sendiri yg rugi.

hidup mesti berhati-hati;
kehadiran yg ketiga tidak disedari.
dirampas ia berlalu berlalu pergi;
tidak ku ingin ia terjadi sekali lagi.

percayalah cintaku ini;
namamu telah ku ukir didalam hati.
memang sukar untuk dipercayai;
belah lah dada, x-ray la hati.

harap dirimu marasakan jua;
kehangatan cinta yg menyala.
biar apa pun org kata;
janji kita bahagia...

-syazwan

2008-02-06T01:12:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i stop blogging. maybe i need to start it back all over again. since almost all my project done. with the submission and all. so next week will be so call my last week of school. then my study week. with 3 days of examination and dats it! i done with year 1 at poly. jus hoping i can actually do well in my examination.

jus pray n study hard to finish everything. need to practice more on my math. damn i just suck at it! haiyooooooooooooo..

050208.
me n girlfriend been 4 month together now.
jus a simple meet up n spend time with her.

120208
n 1 week from now, will be my birthday. gosh! im turning 20. i feel so old now. there's no more TEEN in me. so must be more matured in my thinking. n no more fooling around like i did before. mum already gave me a advance b'dae gift to me. wad she gave me? nike watch. n worst still, she never feel of the price tag on the gift. jus to let me noe how much the watch cost. it cost $240. gosh!!! so expensive. i noe! its a black/gold nike limited addition.

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something bad happen jus now when i was on my way back home.
i was standing still in the bus, and suddenly something struck my mine.
some flashback happen n that made me worried at the moment.

sms n messages made me worried. i just scared it will happen the 2nd time.
worst still if u girlfriend receive a sms n dun want to let u see who jus sms her.
n she read the sms n smile all along.
surely ur mind will think of sth rite?

now its not about trust. but its about the past that made me really scared.
u can trust the person 100% but the person can anytime break ur trust w/o u knowing.
so to me its better to be save than sorry.

the past jus made me think just now...
will it happen once again? will there be the 3rd party. haisss...
how to trust someone when they keep secrets behind u.
lets wait n see.
but at the moment, my past already catch up with me.
should i trust or should i be more careful.?
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2008-01-22T02:01:00.000+08:00

it pass through my bones;
n deep inside i feel the pain.
let's nature take its place;
there's a scar on my heart.

wont be updating my blog.
hear from me soon.
here i say gd bye.

2008-01-17T01:46:00.000+08:00

school was okey. not that tough. because it was wed. usually wed will be relaxing day i suppose but i need to minus of french lesson which for me was totally crap. i screw up my french listening test. i did not manage to get pass for it. but who cares. its french n i cant understand their language!! haiyooooooooooo.. try gimme malay listening. i make sure i get full marks for it.

so next week will be jam pack with lab test n class test. i only get to know that next wed will be my EDEVICE lab test. n on thurs will be my DFUND 2 lab test. really need to score!! cos i flop on the last lab test. no i didnt fail but it was below my expectation? cos i always good in pratical work. you noeee....

ok lets stop talking bout school at the moment. what happen just now? hmmm.. eventually we manage to meet up even though it was quite a tiring day for me, i put aside my late afternoon spending time with my only sayang at pasir ris beach chilling. looking at the sun set which finally set behind us. hahaha! atleast we get to spend our time together rite dear?

she was quite moody jus now. i duno why? maybe cos she's tired? ouh yah maybe... nvm la i did try to crack some jokes just to see her smile. n we did manage to snap some pics. its been a while since i take pic. hahaha. so jus need to update on my photo album. hmmmm so lets the picture do the talking ya...

this was our 1st snap of the day which turn out to be nice...

see her smile. awwwww she mine though.

how sweet can we be? REALLY SWEET!!!

just a lame pic of me. BOREDOM!!

and FINALLY!! the manje side of me. she really want me to post this pic. haiyooooo...

ok till here then.
will post soon.

2008-01-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while since i last post. just too busy with things around. did i miss anything? goshhh... i really need more time for myself. left with my programming project. haiyaaaaa... if only i can copy the solution somewhere n submit it without think much.

now need to study everyday. cos exam is around the corner. which corner? unknown. k lame. anyway i look at my calander, i left with 4 weeks only. i repeat 4 weeks!! and my maths really killing me. i practice my maths almost everyday during the weekdays. but still having problem with it. damnnn. need more time i guess.

hey did i tell u bout last wed? hmmm..my dear treat me pizza hut! reallyy!! she so excited to treat me till she turn quite clumsy there. hahaha. i tink u are cute la. n she spill some of her ice lemon tea to the BBQ chixs. hahaha.. cool huh? too excited la. anyway thanks eh dear. next time it will be my turn treat u k. where u want? Ben n Jerry? hahaha...

so next week will be class n lab test week. so fast sia! crazy. so this is wad poly life is about. everything is fast. if u are slow in catching up, u just will lose out. to survive, jus do daily assignment n daily revision. i think? hahahaa. =))

n not forgetting saying HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to HIZAMI, azreen's bro , or so call my ex tampines ITE mate. but seriously i never seen him in ite before. really! no joke. we are in the same course summore!! i really need to know more ppl. happy b'dae to u again bro. stay happy with ur fierce looking KAK WATY. hahhaa. no hard feelings eh.

cant wait for my weekend. i want to relax myself. i want to play soccer. kick it hard to release all my stress. cool rite? just tink of any face u dont like on the ball n kick it! i mean KICK IT HARD! hahaha.

haven meet my sayang for this week. missing her. haiya! love u sayang.

2008-01-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

happy new year to all!!

i hope its not too late yet. so brand new year with brand new resolution. but for me still thinking of wad to acheive this year. maybe a better life happy life in 2008 wif her? spend more time together? hmmm.. will list my new year resolution down on my next post.

so its been 2 week since school reopen. n i have not complete my project. i got 4 project in total but i only finish 2 of it! goshhh. computer programming is the sucking project ever. goshhhhh 1 more week left for submission. so i need to rush things up this week..

im really upset today. thought of meeting her today. ready, prepared, excited, counting down the time. but lastly she cancel it AGAIN. for the 2nd time in a row i must say. sadness. my heart really down at the point of time. 1st was last sat. which was our 3rd mth together. she 1st plan to meet b4 going work on sat. but on friday night she told me she cant make it. cos she's working at 1pm till 7pm. n for me i work at 6pm. haissssssss i really got nothing more to say.

n for this week, i will be very busy wif my project dues. i dont tink we can meet in any of the days. so maybe next week? but she's a busy woman n i understand her situation. but still duno when we gonna meet. just wait n see...

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my heart is still down;

feeling pain deep inside.

looking for u all around;

when u're not by my side.

am i really that bad?;

am i not good enough for u?.

i kept thinking abt it on my bed;

who am i to u?.

fake everythings around me;

showing u im really ok.

but the pain i kept inside me;

just hope it will go away.

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2007-12-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

-pic credit to irwan...

yo people! im back. all stress up with the test. aiyooooo. mon was my maths. its totally suck i can say. i waste my 20 marks question jus liddat. after 2 weeks of intensive studying, it come to the same. so why study? aiyooooooooooooooo...

so today was my electronic device thingy. was quite ok except for 2 question which i got no confident with the ans. but everything seems alright.

one more day left. i tomoro will be the last paper, the last day of the term, last day i see school till next year. yes next year. 2008! counting down soon. woooooooooooooohhooooooooo... i'm leaving u 2007. but i got too many memories in 2007. goshhhhhh...

let me list down some of it okey.
-mac 2007 (graduate from ite with 3.6 gpa)
-mac 2007 (get to know azreen from my cousin)
-apr 2007 (officially join temasek poly as student)
-aug 2007 (get my driving licence)
-oct 2007 (attached to my sayang azreen after 3 yrs single)
-oct 2007 (celebrate raya wif sayang n cathay ppl)
-dec 2007 (chrismas celebration held at orchard cineleisure)

this is some of it i can remember for now. so gonna miss it. n will always remember it.

n after 2 week of not meeting her, at last we met jus now at AMK mac. she's doing her project n she look so stressed up. even though she's sick, she still forcing herself doin the project. so proud of her. i will just be ur backbone k. u can do it. this is the last week n u can enjoy urself next week k.

anyway she bought me a top man MR TICKLE t-shirt. why MR TICKLE? i really dont know. should buy for me MR STRONG or even MR CHEERFUL ke. or even MR FORGETFUL. hahaha. irwan should know. cos he asked me for a cd n it took me 3 weeks to remember. hahahaha!!! okok dah..

thanks dear once again eh. u should not have buy for me la. n the price gave me a shocked la sey. seriously....

I'M MISSING & LOVING YOU ALWAYS NUR AZREEN!!!

2007-11-26T01:11:00.000+08:00

so after 13 day of not meeting her, at last we met on fri n sun. for 2 hrs each. i just send her to work because i really miss her already. i cant take it anymore...serious SHITE. meet her at hougang n den we went off to ang mo kio. which i tink is the most boring place ever! unlike tampines u know. such a cool neighbourhood. like everything is here la eh. so jus chat, laugh around n of cos me disturb her. time past very fast when we were together. so sadd..wad to do..

so school were OK n working is tiring. but saturday was perfect. with me n irwan conquer Movie Express, we made it like our place. shout, sing, dance, disturb hana till she merajuk n etc. irwan say im over excited. i dont tink so. hahaha =))

next week will be a hell of a week. n so call a QUIZ n TEST week.

tues-lab test for power PCB
wed-Electronics Device Lab test.
thurs-Digital Fund 2 Lab test & DFund2 quiz.
fri-Computer Programming Lab test.

anyway went to watch enchanted with the couple n farouk at The Cathay. it was a FAIRYTALE kind of movie. but i think the storyline was quite romantic n funny. rite after our movie we walk to Marina Sq. n jus lepak there.

today was a humid day. after the rain so call fast rain. imagine im sweating in the Marina sq. dammit! i jus hate it. so we sat at the long staircase area n chill. jus talk craps n we took some pics. n nasty pics too. hahaha...

so jus look at some of our pics..

2007-11-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

so its a week since i last send a post here. was just busy with things around. too many things happen in short while. n im compiling my schedule tightly this week. goshhhh...

attendance for my French class down to 92%. cos i got no mood to go for it due to my NS thing. n guess wad, they did not approve my LOA. Wat The FISH! but is okey. French is not the core subject. thank god! and about my National Service. i was really shocked when i get the letter to report to TEKONG on 6 dec. so luckily they approved my deferment. so TP im still with ya! woohooooo...

movie now picking up. n start to pack right now. with chrismas light already started last friday, it added the customer to cathay. n its really freaking tired working during weekend. n cathay started single midnight. since last week. and now they want me to work more often. even though they got lots of staff. the reason they give me was there's no one want to work. when there's people! walauweeee...

so my this week working schedule :

mon - 6pm to 1am

wed - 6pm to 1am

fri - 6pm to 3am

sat - 6pm to 3am

its harder when there's lots of assignment need to hand up this week. with project due this thurs. plus maths n electronic device assignment due thurs. n maths test on friday morning. how am i gonna catch up! feeling the stress plus it added to my headache n my come n go sickness. i think i need to buy more PANADOL EXTRA just in case.

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it was 10 days now since i last saw her.

when will we meet again?

when will we laugh together n run around?

haizz. should i just wait for the day to come.

i tried to be understanding.

n still trying to be the so call " perfect bf ".

but everything single thing was not right.

since the day she told me bout the story.

im down with sadness every single day.

but my smile block it every single way.

ppl may think im cheerful. but im actually not.

some think im good but others think im not.

should i be like wad i use to be?

or change myself for the good of others?

so confused at the moment.

im burning my hand but i cant feel the pain.

so when can we actually meet.

to hold your hand tightly again.

see ur smile that brighten up my day,

giving u love n bring u far far away...

only god knows how much i really miss her...

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2007-11-13T18:29:00.000+08:00

so wad should i blog about today?hmmm...some plan need to be cancel today. something like did not get to meet my boo. cos was plan to fetch her from work. but last minute get to know that she did not work today. so when will we meet again? next week i supposed? hmmm.. see wad going to happen this week la eh.

so my project due 2 more days. but i haven even start on it. come on syazwan just a 4 slides powerpoint and thats it. still like so hard for me cos i cant tink well bout the design n all.

and today was my electronics device test. how can i forget bout the resistor (max) n (min) thingy. goshh!! i didnt do 2 question. n it cause me 8 marks gone jus liddat. for the 2 question. can u believe it! but i hope i can manage to pass on that test.

so next week i left with 2 more test. my "SO BLOODY HARD TO UNDERSTAND" maths. n my " I THINK I CAN SCORE " digital fund 2. mauhahaha.. lets pray hard n really need to buck up on my maths. cos i dont really understand it. *bluek* 4 weeks time is the term test. so fast!!

n pray hard i can get my NS deferment. if not. bye2 to poly. here i come TEKONG 6th dec. i get army! so excited! (like real only...) so pray hard for me k dear. so we can meet at TP next year? we will see bout that lah eh.

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so now i really missing her.

how? how to meet her?

schedule will be damn pack for me n her.

when will we get time to see each other.

hope she miss me too.

if not i will damn sad. hahaha!!

only time will tell...

for this, I REALLY MISS U DEAR.

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2007-11-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

so after almost a week didnt get to meet my boo. she actually get her leave on sat n i cant get replacement for myself. i start work at 8 though. it was quite a tiring day for me. but i did enjoy spend half of my day wif her. really miss her a lot.

we went to watch movie. 1.45 show. i force myself up that day even though i end work at 3am the day before. see the power of love. cey cey... den we went to raffles place sakura n have our lunch there. its hard to see her eat okey. n she will always eat a small portion. (jage badan agaknye eh. hahaha...)

anyway we took alot of pic. 20 plus i think...so let the pic do the talking la ehh...this is just a few pics of us. but the most exciting part was that we played cathing in the middle of town area. with me disturbing her bout her sec school life. using same bag wif her so call ex. kept POKING me only. hahhaa.

but the most funniest part was her saying the word "BREATHING". but she say "BREAVING". goshhh i just love her sooo much. she really make my day. when will we meet again. haisss... im counting the day.

and i hope i will that the differment k dear. so we can spend in TP together. we will see how. if not i will be in TEKONG on the 6th of dec. 1pm. which is also my mum birthday.
saddness...

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she's my happiness;
she's my sadness.
she's my love;
she's my darling.

i love her soo much.
you are my booo..
i'm missing u girl.
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2007-11-08T04:05:00.000+08:00

what a day i had today. more den 20hrs outside of home. can imagine that. n now its 4am. about 8am i will be out again working my arse out. cos of the double pay of cos i want to work more. n will end work at 6pm tomoro. supposed to be 5pm but for FAROUK sake. i end work at 6 same as him. but for sure zul will want us to wait for him. cos he end at 8pm. hahaha...

we will just see wad happen tomoro. hope i will enjoy tomoro. cos all the good kakiss will be working. all taking either morning or mid shift. cos of schooling n attachment reasons the next day. n ya. i got maths quiz on friday morning at 9am. shite. i didnt even have time to revise. so tomoro is the only day!! haiyaaa must squeeze everything in.

as usual friday n saturday will be my working days. closing cathay at 3am. n sunday will just slack at home. revise my Electronics Device thingy. the quiz will be on tues. n i still haven start my project yet. die die. must do. must not sleep anymore.

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my brain still didnt work properly.
i skip 2 meals. i duno wads up wif me.
plan to eat mc spicy. but end up giving it to my working mate.
call me crazy. call me stupid.
if u ask me wad happen to me. i cant ans that. sorry.

many ppl say "saying sorry is the hardest thing."
but to me its different.
mine will be like "saying sorry to the things that i never do wrong."
maybe because i love her too much. only god know...

with all the situation happen. i hope she can realise something.
the keyword here is "HOPE".
i really in state of confused.
when gonna meet again? i duno.
when she free? i really duno.

commitment really play a big part in a relationship.
n not forgetting a well plan schedule for u n ur partner.
in some qoute says "it need 2 hands to clap."
not one is trying really hard. but the other just taking it for granted.

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" love can be found anyway, but TRUE love need to be build. it take time, efford , commitment , understanding n lots more to make make it strong n UNBREAKABLE. " think about it....

2007-11-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

every single things seems unperfect for me today:
-the weather was too cold for me.
-the bus was late.
-i'm late for my 1st lesson.
-the food i eat was not nice n too oily. ( i eat only 1/4 of the fried rice )
-i got a bad hair day.
-pics taken. none of it turn out nice.
-i force myself to smile to everyone.
-i laugh myself out. but deep inside im not.

some people say everythings happen for a reason. n im still searching for it. i will try to stay strong n belive this is all the ups n downs of life. but as far as i concern the word "missing u" is still kept deep inside w/o me letting it out.

my hp seem so quiet. kept checking it if there's network. its seems fine. or maybe i should just off it? hmmm...i really down at the moment. really hated this month. with project due next week. with class test start next week as well. goshhhh...i really need time for myself.

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is your love for me is true?
will we be like last time again?
will u msg me again?
i think i will just wait for the day to come.

if the day did not come,
i think i will remain quiet.
if i done something wrong,
i'm really sorry.

i know i'm no perfect guy,
perfect guy u know before.
i'm just someone who's still learning,
learning to love someone like u.

its u who i really love.
its u who i always miss.
its u i want to spend my time with.
its u i want to live with.

if u still need me;
please do msg me.

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-thanks for the advice estila.

2007-11-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

at this point in time, my mind is totally blank. there's not a single word in the dictionary can explain how i really feel right now. we turn so call ONE. there's no celebration or excitement that we actually went through it. but wif her at work after school. with me sleeping at home after school n eventually receive call from a friend n we went for a movie. thats is so call my celebration...

i might just be schooling n working my arse out this week. at first i took off on saturday. thinking of going out with her. but guess wad, she's working on saturday. i was really down when i heard she say that last sunday. its like there's no time for us. wif my manager kept begging me to work on saturday. so i just tink that it is better for me to work on saturday. den wasting my time at home doing nothing good?

my heart really shattered to pieces. n she told me her schedule will be pack this month. so i can only meet her in december i think. n its like 3 more weeks to go. so i shall countdown starting from now. 24 more days to meeting her. so i call my manager to just put my name for this saturday. cos i might just work rather den staying at home which will make me rather sad if i shall think abt it. so why not work n just enjoy the day with my fren which the day was really meant for my own girlfriend. haissss. my heart sank.

so my working schedule as follows :

wed -6pm to 3am
thurs - 9am to 5pm
fri - 6pm to 3am
sat - 6pm to 3am

its not that i didnt give time for her. i even requested to send her to work just to see her. but did she even ask me. " can i meet u ? " or even " can u send me to work later " . so i will know she really miss n want to see me. i'm really upset at the moment. i cant really think straight right now. so i might not me only for this whole week i guess.

here i'm putting in my efford.
just to put aside some time for us.
here i just get dissapointed.
cos my efford is not being appreciated.

2007-10-30T18:36:00.000+08:00

sunday was a bomb i guess. our cathay raya went smoothly even though it was quite a tiring one for me. it was plan by me 2 week before the actual thing. so i get to contact 21 people in total. so total of 1 van , 2 cars, 4 bikes went for the raya thingy.

we met around 12pm till 12am. wahhh! 12 hours! we get to visit around 12 house. so 1 house 1 hr. kekeke... but in between there's some of us who got to go. some need to go other open house, some need to visit their family houses n some need to serve the nation. hahaha.. but still we have fun la.

the best part was the photo taking session we had every house we went too. n the food we had was soooooooo good. till i had a bad stomach ache at the end of the day. goshhhh..

okok let the pics do the talking...

Azreen&Me with Qama&Madi

This was taken at Shai's house...

Aizat homey at woodlands....

Was taken at Bukit Panjang, Amalina's home...

This was the last pic we taken at Sengkang...

no matter how tired i am on that sunday, no matter how sleepy i was on that day, atleast i got to spend my whole day with her. with her by my side in car make me awake while driving even though she slept most of the time. n i still duno when will we spend our day like that again. hope i will see her soon enough cos i already miss her...

I TOTALLY INTO HER...

2007-10-25T02:09:00.000+08:00

school has been so damn packed. i didnt even have time for myself to relax. n also for her. she too seems busy wif her last semester. n her job rite now. with her changing her job. surely she will have a tighter schedule. so wad we need is jus time.

my daily routine will be like:
wake up at 7, get ready for school. left house ard 8.15.
finish school ard 6pm. go home straight.
take a nap till 8.30.
wake up. eat. watch tv. do some tutorial question.
den went to sleep again.

my first french class was totally boring. the teacher incharge was on medical leave. so i tot the lesson was cancel BUT our class of 25 people was separated into many classes. n i was put wif some BORING class. class full of lamers i guess. its like only me entertaining them. wif my lame2 french assence( i duno if my spelling is rite). but hopefully my real class will be much lively ones.

when will be the next holiday? i really cant wait for it. i miss my holidays!!
but most of all.

I REALLY MISS YOU DEAR!

2007-10-23T08:45:00.001+08:00

Salut! (hi in french) everyone..
school have just started. n thats the end of my 8 weeks holidays.
my new timetable totally SUCK.! suck big time i can say.
almost everyday i finish after 5 except for wed n fri. which i end at 4pm on wed n end at 12 on fri. totally no difference i guess. BLUEKS*

now i can spend only few days with her. both just too busy wif our school n work.
but surely we gonna wif some times for ourselves k dear.
gonna miss u! SERIOUS! no joke. hahaha.

ok cathay people. our RAYA RAYA CATHAY will be held this sunday 28th of oct. there's no colour code k ppl. just wear anything u guys want. but please no PASAR2 outfit. for goodness sake we goin visiting. example jus look at my pic on top. hahaha!!
so make u n urself free. msg me for any clarification okey...

so cant wait for this weekend. i can meet u dear! hahaha. so white? cream? PINK? hahaha. NO PURPLE please. n i dun have purple also. hahaha.

i end my entry wif this.
jus for u....

when we went out together,i've already love u ;

when we watch the sun set, i've already love u ;

when i look in your eyes, i've already love u;

when i disturb n make u smile, i've already love u;

now i dont know when i start loving u;

but i'm sure its hard for me to forget u;

lastly i say this. i truely love u.

Au revoir (good bye)

2007-10-16T23:10:00.001+08:00

what can i say about today? i got bad luck early in the morning.

woke up at 8.15, went mc to get pancake for breakfast. head straight to school after that. so i took out my ezlink card n wait for bus. when the bus came, as usual i tap on the " machine ". but this time. there's no TEEET sound!! ok i try the 2nd, 3rd n 4th time. in my heart saying this " PLEASE DONT SPOIL! I JUST TOP UP OKEYYY!! " 5th time i confirm that my ezlink was spoilt. haiyaaaa...lucky i got lots of coins to spare me that time.

ok i wasnt late for the briefing thing. it started at 10am. i reach school ard 9.45. yes i was early but i waited for jojo for ard 25mins. so considered i'm late for the briefing. went to the LT30 find myself a seat and began to listen. i tot it will take few hours. but i was wrong again. it finish at 11. goodness sake! it was only 1 hr briefing. wasted my sleep for few hours! damnnnn!!!

met up wif azreen my sayang at hougang ard 12.45. she nag about my spoilt ezlink. hahaha. cos just 1 semester n my ezlink already spoil. hahaha...not my fault wad? its the ezlink. no good.

at first we decide to go town. but ended up to VIVO city. doin wad? dunoo. window shopping i guess. went to starbuck, grab some chocolate chip cream n headed up to seat down n chill. took some pics. n my camera batt low. " with samsung, its not that hard to imagine." so bad luck.

so here's some pic we manage to take together :

take 1!

take 2!

take 3!

just 1 word i can describe the pic.

SWEETNESS!!!!

2007-10-15T02:15:00.000+08:00

Firstly. i would like to wish....

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SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!!!!!!

to all the muslim out there.
not forgetting u dear!

after all the hardwork and the sweats i put in...
this is wad my home look like.
1st pic is my balcony + 1st part of my living room.
2nd pic is my 2nd part of my living.

many people say it is well done. CREDIT to me okey!!!
n i paint the whole house. hahahhaa....
so wads my family colour? of cos white.
putih = " suci lagi menyucikan! "

see isnt that cool! whole family in white.
top - my whole family
bottom - my family + my granny.
n who choose the family colour? ME AGAIN!! hahaha....

just a random pic of me.
i never put the brooch.
cos i think its already too common. puits! hahaha

k this is the 2nd day pic. me wearing black wif my small sis.
see how small n KEPO she is. hahaha.
see cute tak the small girl n baju kurung? kekeke...

k thats all for this blog. ciaos.

2007-10-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

counting down. 4 more days to raya. gosh! time do past very fast. my home is still in a messy stage! haiyaaaa.. but at some point i cant wait for it to arrive. why? cos i'm wearing my fav. colour this year? black n white? yaaaa la u. u want to say ZEBRA kan? i noe.. but still i loike!!

most of the house busy making KUEH. same goes for my house. hahaha! i'm the QC for the kueh. wad is QC? its QUALITY CHECKER la! hahaha...i will check if its taste good or lack of something. biase ah! kate CHIEF WAN! * tersedak *

will only be working on wednesday morning 10am-6pm. after so damn long i never work opening before. yessa!

something to think about.

live ur life to the fullest; dun live it full of regrets.

i miss only you;

my love is so true.

i hope u feel the same way too;

CONFIRM i love only you.

2007-10-04T04:04:00.001+08:00

k at last i bought my baju kurung. n i'm set for the raya! yey!!! all white with black samping as mention. how much my baju kurung cost? dont tell u. hahaha. u will say i'm crazy. shhhh... hahaha.

tomoro? thurs? wad am i gonna do. wipe my windows! aiyoooooo.. hate dat sey. must panjat here n there like some monkey yg terlepas dari zoological garden. k lame. ok just clean up day for me tomoro.

anyway congrats to someone on her result. i'm happy for u. work harder n we will meet in same poly hopefully eh.

i'm in the state of confusion. haiisss...

nvm. wish u can tell me. if u are ready? nvmmmm...
yeah u are worth the wait. but till when eh?
if u give me ur heart, i'll give u my everything..
but if i go? would u be missing me? haisss...

here i signed off.

2007-10-03T05:10:00.000+08:00

while browsing through my files in my come, i came across this i think funny video. happen in ite tampines. jus let u all see lah. i'm not that " good boy " after all. hahaha. who say i'm not wild? hahaha. i call this " jackass wannabe. " LU KENA LA BABE!!!

ENJOYSSSS!!!

2007-10-03T04:23:00.000+08:00

want to read wat i wrote on my pic? just double click on my pic. it will enlarge. hmmm i'm still in the state of confusion. i duno wat baju kurung wanna buy! i haven buy any!! goshhhh.. either wear the teluk belanga or the cekak musang? i prefer cekak musang ah. cos i think i dun look good in teluk belanga. its like so bare liddat. hmmm... buy wear to find it? aiyooooo....

anyone wanna follow me search for my baju kurung? i want the white kilat2 kind. hahaha if only u guys understand la. den wif black samping i got, black songkok wif blink2 BROOCH. n white chapal. damn! i love black n white! like someone kan? kekekeke...

anyway i will only be working on friday. so i got thurs,wed,sat,sun to find my baju kurung. cos next week will start my house SPRING CLEANING! wooohooooo... i will throw anything i like w/o anyone stopping me! even my bro cant do anything. if he ask. " i already throw it. sorry!! " hahaha...

so friday will be working from 12pm-8pm. gonna be a boring day i supposed. ishhh and u want me to fetch u? cos i miss u? can? hahhaa... ok boring.

YEY!!! NEXT WEEK HARI RAYA!!
jom carik bunge api!! hahha..

here i signed off.

2007-10-01T03:10:00.001+08:00

ok yesterday was our 1st buke together at tepak sireh. most of them already quit cathay. sum still remain there la. one of them is me. some goin NS soon. most of them finding more stable job wif much higher income.

we book place at tepak sireh which was almost packed wif ppl. wif some even near by. say lots of DESIGN bike. there's VESPA group. there's GILERA group or they call themselves G-Unit. there's super big bike group consist mainly class 2 bike like R1, CBR and HAYABUSA. damn their bike is superb.

after our buke, we went to geylang straight. there's 16 of us. 2 cars, 1 van and 4 bikes. jus small2 one including farouk new VIRGIN bike. hahaha... ok here's some of the pics taken.

group photo at TEPAK SIREH.

another group photo at joo chiat complex.

there's me wif my EXCITED n FUNNY pose. haha.

n after all tired. we jus slack at TKC eating Dendeng. kekeke...

Something to think about

Your love is a lantern.
That lights my way;
Uplifting my spirits.
When skies are gray.

Your love is a wave;
That lifts me higher.
Into a sea;
Of tender desire.

Your love is a flame;
That can never die.
For always and ever;
It will be just you and I.

Your love is a rose;
Moistened with dew.
Touching my soul;
With the beauty of you.

To Someone : I REALLY MISS YOU!!

2007-09-28T05:42:00.000+08:00

hey guys! listen to my background music. woooooohoooooo!! semangat raya babe. sepasang kurung biru. most of the teenager fav. hari raya song. but not for me though. i prefer "ku pohon restu ayah bonda from mamat. that the sad song ah.

so counting lets countdown to raya wif me. today will be the 16th Ramadhan. so that means 14 more days to go. woooohooooo!! no more fasting already! ooopsss. i mean can celebrate hari raya.. hahaha. anyway pay coming in this weekend. must shop for hari raya.

1st - white baju kurung
2nd - shades
3rd - shoe (not important cos i always wear chapal)
4th - new specs or contact lens.

okey i need that only. hahaha. to me the most important is the 1st day. must look good plus EXTRA macho on that day u know. hahaha. why? cos thats the only day ppl tend to take more pics! n with my new digicam, damn i cant wait for that day. hahahaa!!!

something to tink about.

if a girl cry cos u never reply her. does she got feelings for u?
if a girl get jealous when know ur ex contacted u. does she got feelings for u?
if a girl tell u she misses u. does she got feelings for u?
if a girl never tell the real thing to u and expect u to know. does she got feelings for u?
if a girl said that u are her man. does she got feelings for u?

why not she just tell me straight that she really love u? hmmmm..

here i signed off.

2007-09-25T21:17:00.000+08:00

sorry i have to delete the last post. cos to me its not dat important. anyway today is a slacking day for me. wake up. go pasar. buy some stuff to cook for buka n then help my nenek cook buka. after that just pick up my sis from work n come back home slack again. hahaha...

was so damn no mood today. i was driving so damn crazy. so damn furious. squeeze here n there. till my sis freak out. i'm sorry eh. cos i jus feel like speeding ah. arghhhhh...!!!

anyway tomoro will be working 12-6. but surely i cant get home on time for buka. so i think i will just stay at cathay n buka there b4 goin home lorr. or jus alas perut first n at home den eat many2. hahaha..

thurs i'm not supposed to work. but have to cover for zul shift 6pm-11pm. cos he got something on. kawan nye pasal eh. i'll be understanding la zul! at home also there's nothing better to do rather den sitting infront of my com doing nothing.

friday will be driving the whole day for me i guess. sending ppl here n there. quite cool wad. hahaha..

sat will be working 11am-8pm n will meet my family right after that for some hari raya shopping. wooooohoooooo... goin to wear white for this year. first choice was PINK. FREAKING BRIGHT PINK. goshhh i look so SUTUN ( or GAY ) . goin to 2nd chance on sat n gonna find some baju kurung. last 2 years i bought black baju kurung for $90. am i crazy or wad? there's bling2 okey on the baju kurung. hahaha... who cares! my mum didnt say anything. haha. but this year i'm gonna pay for my baju kurung. sob sob*

sunday will be cathay old staff reunion or so call BUKE BERSAMA. okey TEPAK SIREH k guys. those who got car,bike or van please ride n drive okey. there's about 17 of us. so i think it will be kecohness lor. DENGDENG! here i come.

here i signed off.

2007-09-23T05:13:00.001+08:00

this some of the crazy peeps at cathay. front row from left ( ira,shakila,fit,hana,farouk & me). back row or "so call the newbie in black" from left ( ben, "ehem" *i forgot his name, imran, jay). that was when all of us is so free. haha.. nahh actually i was supposed to check stock. but they call me to take some pics. hahahaha...

should have take more pics wif others too la. hahaha..anyway went to geylang yesterday. was so damn crowded. traffic were congested. of cos congest wif the mats & minahs making the area like their party area. n i tot geylang bazaar was meant for families to be together finding stuff for raya. n not for them walking ard smoking like nobody buisness. but i didnt walk to the bazaar area la. jus stayed at joo chiat.

saw some of my frens. n they told me i change alot. i'm like " WHERE GOTT!! " hahaha.. met my ex fren. working at one of the boutique there. she was suprised when saw me. but never talk much wif her cos my mum were there. we use to go out together n stuff la. den after i broke up wif my ex, we lost contact. but really singapore is a small country la. haha...

so sunday will be a slacking day for me. jus stayed at home sit infront of my com i guess. damn i duno wad to blog. hahaha..

something to think about.

"Love is when there are a million things you want to say to someone, but when they look you in the eyes and hold you in their arms nothing in life matters other than being with that person at that moment."

so if u felt it before.
den i can really say that u are in love.
love is something special.
so be true if it.

here i signed off.

2007-09-21T05:18:00.000+08:00

so wat should i say today? nothing much la. just that i will be working from 6pm-3am today. jus had my sahur jus now n i'm all full. hahaha.

and not forgetting. i did serve 2 so call mediacorp celebrities. u know the one act as " AH MAH " on PCK pte ltd. n PCK most hated fren " FRANKIE FOO " . i heard they were both married with each other rite? so they watch movie together la. hahaha. frankie foo with his real name Lim Kay Siu is pleasent guy la. friendly plus humble. i just serve him well. smile to him so i think he's cool la. haha. i did serve Mark Lee or even Najib Ali before la. or even more customer la. even some malaysian actor n director. eg. afdlin shauki . i'm sure u guys know him la. hahaa. funny guy of cos.

so working in cathay brought so many experiences. like saw JAY CHOU. famous hong kong actress who act on MY WIFE IS A GANGSTER. n lots more la. haha. most of them jus friendly. so guys dun me jealous k.

something to think about.

life is short.
jus express ur love.
to the one who really deserve ur love.
be it they like it or not.
atleast u gain ur confident.
u never know if the person have the same feeling u have.
this may make a big different in ur life.
than seeing the someone u love with others.
when the others can be u urself.

"When you love someone, you pick up the little things and magically turn them into something special."

here i signed off.

2007-09-20T04:07:00.000+08:00

why i post this pic? cos see the background. thats the original colour of my living room. now i want u guys to imagine it in yellow. BRIGHT YELLOW! hahaha.. goshhh! imagine how bright it would be during the day? with SAMSUNG " its not that hard to imagine " hahaha!! ok lame.

still haven finish the 30% of the living room. cos i need to bring down the 42 inch TV from the wall first. n maybe i will do that on sat. i wont be free for tomoro n friday. cos i need to work lorr.. haiyaaa. Cathay is so damn quiet this week. its like ghost town. was so damn bored. i also duno why i came to work. jus to do the closing i guess. 2 person is enough to serve the customer.

ok i got this 2 funny incident. it happen on monday. i'm supposed to start work at 12pm but they call me early in the morning to come early to do some tidy up matter because of some audit checks for cleanliness. *did i spell it correctly? who cares!!* anyway i came at 11am. jus 1 hr early! do LOTS of cleaning. n by the time i open my Movie express it was like 1pm. upon opening, came this malay guy. HE LOOK PURE MALAY *cap kat dahi nye!!*. speak SLANG english which i think totally suck asking for hotdog n drink. in my heart was like " TAK PUASE NYE BUDAK. CONFIRM NERAKA " hahaha!! so i jus gave it to him.

next incident. happen ard 4pm. there this malay guy came to my counter. he said " bang hotdog combo satu. chilli for the hotdog n drink change to ice tea. " i jus smile at him. before he pay for his hotdog combo. he told me this " saya puase. hotdog nie nak buat buke tyme dalam wayang nanti. " i'm like WAT THE FISHHHHH!!! 4pm? buke? dalam wayang?. maybe its his first time doing that la. hahaha!! TYPICAL MALAY SINGAPOREAN I GUESS. haha..

Something think about.

its hard to say those 3 words.
its even harder to show it to them.
the more u wanna show, the more fear u will be.
this is when ur courage come in.
when u're true wif your love.
there's nothing to fear.
jus tell the person how much they mean to u.

" with a bit of courage, ur fear will go away bit by bit "

here i signed off.

2007-09-19T04:30:00.000+08:00

presenting, the cute side of me! hahaha.. okok lame. now its about 4.30 am. i jus finish painting 3/4 of my living room. goshhh i'm so tired. haven sleep yet. will have my sahur sooon, subuh prayer n gone to my lala land. n must wake up ard 12. will be working t 4pm today which will end at around 11pm. so i'm gonna have my break fast at work today. haissss. still tink home food is wayyy better den outside.

come home after work i'm gonna finish up my painting and thats it. will keep my mum quiet. haha! and its only like 7 ramadhan today. i already finish my painting. how excited can i be? hahaha!! ouh ya! its already 1 week since we start fasting. hmmmm tyme past quite fast ah? dont u guys think? wohhoooooo HARI RAYA COMING!!! but nothing to be excited about la. cos i will nvr get duit raya anymore. so old already. aiyooooo. * touch forehead * i'm excited cos my dream came true. can drive during hari raya! YAYNESSSSS!! hahaa...

stop all the raya thing n think about the preparation. spring cleaning of the whole house. dont tink i'm gonna paint my bedroom. jus leave the black n white paint. wif the grafitti of my name on the wall. *bluekk!!

something to think about.

a fren came to me for opinion. she asked me whether she's acting like a so call bitch or not. cos she did like this guy A. kept trying to get close to the guy but the guy A jus ignore her. den came this guy B who is guy A fren la. at first she jus think that this guy B is jus a fren n not more den that la. but this guy B confess that he like her n want to get to know her better. the guy B did everything to get close to her. talk on the fon, never failed to msg her all that stuff. n now she think she wanna move on n she started to fall for the guy B. is she acting like a bitch? hmmm...

to me she's not la cos she's moving on with her life. n must not stuck wif that guy A all the way. like some people say " if someone dont like u, its a no use to wait ". what do u think?

for me. its been 2 days since i last msg her. ya in my heart i did miss her. but i duno if she got the same feeling too. maybe i need to wait longer? but my heart tell me that if she will to miss me, she will find me. ok den just wait n see.

thats a long entry from me.

i end it wif this,

if u love someone,

tell him/her u love them.

dont keep them waiting,

u never know one day they will change their mind.

and will leave u with regrets.

here i signed out.

2007-09-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

hey its been awhile since i last posted my blog here. my comp broke down. some problem with the motherboard. stupid SEY! haha.. anyway my comp is back to normal now after some $200 repair. aiyooooo.. money flew just liddat SEY! keke... ooopppsss!! sorryy to someone eh.

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAKK!! to all the muslim. i'm a bit slow but its okey kan? tol tak. atleast wish. ok i got pantun for u all.

Bulan puase tiba lagi;
ia disambut sane sini.
puase biar genap 30 hari;
jgn pulak hanya 1 hari.

bangun sahur mkn roti;
kononnye nak jage badan.
puase baru setengah hari;
sendiri dah tak tahan.

buat persiapan sane sini;
baju kurung tempah sekali.
padahal puase tak pernah sehari;
tapi die yang paling OVER nanti.

something to think about.

if u love someone, would u risk everything?

wait for the person like there's no tomoro?

or would u jus let them go?

but to me, holding on is to show how the person really meant to u.

1st thing first. till when would u hold on to this?

hmmm... think about it. lips shut. jus wait and see wad gonna happen.

lastly.

1st u say u want;

den u say u will.

u keep me hanging on;

we are not moving on.

i end this here.

2007-09-07T11:34:00.000+08:00

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2007-09-07T01:46:00.001+08:00

ok here i go again. been busy wif things around me. exam over n result will be out on 12 sept. damn i really duno how my result will be like. i think my maths still SUCK. so now having 7 weeks break n got nothing better to do. just work, work and work like some mad guy. so i'm like working as full time rite now. hahaa...

less den a week will be fasting month or the month of RAMADHAN. i really love it ah. why? cos this is when my mum will cook really good food. n now i can drive, lets go geylang bazaar!! hahaha. but must wait for pay first ah. oh gossshh my mum already asking me when i'm goin to paint the house. so lazyyyy..for those who have been to my home will noe la how big my living room is. haiyaaa so lecehh!! but for the festive month, my mum will let me decorate my home! hahaha..i choose the colour. she just provide me the money! hahaha...

now need to start thinking of wad colour to wear during raya. i knew some already sent their costume to malaysia. *act blur* anyway please guys out there, dont wear pink. especially the bright pink. damn u look so gay. ader cap gay kat dahi. serious!! serious sampai langgar lori! ok lame. haha.

n i dedicate my new friendster song to someone who really like it? hahhaa...
atleast i got the song on my blog. hahaha..

2007-08-26T15:03:00.000+08:00

ok got a funny pic there. the soldier of cathay. hahha.. nahhh jus a stupid ratatouille. damn they really make us look like some stupid boys serving the customer. funny ah? ninabeee...hahaha.

yesterday was okey la. its the return of 4 of us. all working yesterday accept for the 2 sister hana n fit. duno where they lost to? planet MARS maybe. n hana surely will be here reading my blog. jus telling u miss the phototaking we had at work hana! hahha..

and oh yaaa. qama n azreen came to cathay. they bought so call DONG~NUTS? actually donuts ah. duno ah both of them. laugh about " dongnuts " thingy. thanks both of you for the donuts. they walk all the way from wisma jus to gimme the donuts. haha. or can say wanna eat with me the donuts. i'm so touch.*touching chest*. n azreen still malu2. she didnt give me eye contact at all when talking to me! n she told qama she had butterfly in her stomach when saw me. n maybe it transform to lion when i began to talk to her. hahaha. relax la jgn tension.

n tomoro is my math paper. i haven start studying yet! this is crazy i tell u. the killing subject of all!!! wish me luck u guys! i guess i will burn midnight oil tonight. my paper will be at 9.30am!! goshhhhh!!!

FACT OF LIFE
have u ever wonder if the guy/girl u know is so call "the right one" for you?
1st - ask yourself if u have know the person well enough.
2nd - what is the sweetest thing the person did for you.
3rd - did you feel so anything when facing the person.

if u feel this 3 things, maybe the person is the right for you. cos by knowing the person well, thats the only way u can know the real him/her inside out. so u wont get cheated by him/her. the sweetest thing the person did can tell u how romantic they are. n of cos many people like to be with someone romantic rite? n if you had feelings like butterfly in ur stomach? or even lion in ur stomach. haha. u ask yourself how can u get the feeling? hmmm maybe using this can make ur relationship last longer...

" Love is for a couple to share their deepest feelings for each other. Try to be in love and you will feel the world is yours. "

here i signed out.

2007-08-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

what i'm doin? study of cos. damn i hate studying. and really hated this part of school time. n guess wad, i really did study okey on my so call study week. since monday w/o fall will see me at school library wif my other 4 frens cracking our brain to our full potential sia. cey cey. n releasing our stress by jus playing PSP? that is one of the coolest thing to do. try it if u guys dont trust me. hahaha..but must know your limit.

might not update my blog that often because of examination of cos. so 1 paper down, 2 more to go. concentrating on my maths now. THE KILLER SUBJECT!! goshhh.. how i wish i have a superb brain which can remember the fomulae. damn i need to start soon or will fail my maths? damnnn!! dont want leehhh..

tomoro i will jus start my maths n need to go work. bloody hell. i already told them i cant work but still force me. need to plan my time well this weekend. bcos my math paper will be on monday morning 9.30 am sia...wish anyone can wake me up that early. haha..

FACT OF LIFE

i heard from many that its hard to move on after a bad relationship with ur ex after a long relationship. to me, i will agree with that. cos i'm in that group of people. so its almost 3 years since i broke up wif my ex. ok some will be shocked with that la. 3 years is just number i guess. i dun realise it after i start counting. hahaha.. anyway to me, i already make a conclusion la. which i think its good for me to share. we should jus move on in life. n forget about the past. some malay qoute this

" Kehidupan mempunyai senyum dan tangis , airmata adalah mata masin. Kerana ia adalah garam kehidupan. "

its difficult for me to translate it in english. cos after i translate it, surely it wont make sense la.haha. but after reading this qoute, make me think awhile. it is true after all. why must we look at our past when we can jus move ahead in life. make our past as our learning journey of becoming someone "great" in the future.

here i signed out.

2007-08-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

look all !! see i got my driving licence card jus now by post. so happy that i scan it! hahaha... of cos la happy. DRIVING CLASS 3 licence seyyy.. n it all pure hard work. put all my time, efford, money.. wahhh so now, anyone want a ride? hahaha...

ok lets talk about today i guess. today class start at 1 but reach school at 1.45. i'm late? noe la... hahaa.. i'm not late la. only that the lecturer is early la. was really not mood to study sia just now. was tinking about someone la actually. nahhh nvm. hehee...

so wad gonna happen tomoro? tomoro is my presentation day. so need to wear formal to school tomoro. aiyooooo.. syazwan wearing formal? too weird i guess. hahaa.. but some say i look nice in my formal long sleeve? but dunoo lets see wad happen tomoro. if anyone ask me for my no. or sth? hahaha.. nahh joking2. will take some pics tomoro. n promise u guys i will update it on my blog. latest by sunday la. cos tomoro u noee i'll be working till 3am. same goes on sat. so i dun tink i can update them either tomoro nor sat.

so she gonna go malaysia tomoro night. haissss gonna miss her i guess. hope she would feel the same thing. just want her to take care of herself. msg me when you come back? n buy for me oleh2... hahaha.. nahhh.

so i dont give up just yet.
still waiting for the right time.
so i really want u...kekeke.
something to tink about...

one day, the one you love gone with others.

you are too late in telling them how u feel.

what will u do?

move on in life?

or will you feel regrets to know that u did have chance.

but u dont want to tell the person cos u are shy?

here i signed out.

2007-08-16T01:33:00.000+08:00

what should i blog about today? okok i heard from someone that her fren visited my blog just to read my entry? haha..okok welcome to SASWANOVA BLOG! do leave some words on my tagboard la. aiyoooo takmo sembunyi2. ckp as'kum pon jadi la. atleast i know u guys visited my blog mahh? tol tak? kekee...

wasn't schooling jus now. but work from 2pm-11pm. was not that tired after all la. jus some minor hall rantal happening and was still at the OK stage. then came this so call " try to sweet " couple to my counter. wanted to buy some popcorn b4 their movie. the set come with 2 drinks. after given them their sweet popcorn, as usually i ask for their choice of drink. the girl duno which drink to choose so she ask her bf to choose any drink and she will drink it. and her bf too ask her to choose for him. AND THE MOST IRRITATING THING WAS THAT BOTH OF THEM CHOOSE COKE!!! i'm like WHAT THE FCUK!! you guys think funny ah? dont act mushie2 infornt of me la.

and this other stupid incident happen few weeks ago. was serving this couple. the bought quite alot la. they watching SECRET. ok la for a long movie. the seem like a perfect couple. they went in their theater like other ppl. 1/2 hr later after the movie already started, this look like a perfect couple came out from the theater. the guy chasing the girl. the girl was running with her tears flowing. they were arguing abt sth. infront of the usher point. talking quite loud with the guy holding his handphone n showing it to his gf. me n my fren jus watch a free show lorr.. cos they were talking in chinese we dun understand.

so i think this thing happen...

the guy was having an affair with other girl. n while inside the theater the girl was jus playing with the guy handphone. looking at his picture all. while doing that, an incoming msg came. n that was the guy scandal. she read the msg and she was so damn angry with the guy and the incident happen. so how? wad u guys tink? hahaha.. and lastly i think the guy is now SINGLE. hahahaha!! stupid boy!!

some poem to think about...

my knees start to shake,

when you're in sight.

my mind is filled with wonder,

my heart with fright.

when will this feeling stop?

when did it really start?

how can i listen to my mind,

without breaking my heart?

i'm so confused.

what should i fo?

i cant think of anything,

except you.

should i ignore you?

or just give it time?

i cant think straignt,

my heart controls my mind.

aim the star.

if cant reach it,

atleast u get to reach the sky.

here i signed out.

2007-08-15T01:37:00.000+08:00

What is Life?
- being able to get a meaningful life.
- full of happiness. less of tears.
- into good relationship of ur opposite sex.
- staying happy-go-lucky.
- achieving your goal in life.
- dont ever give up. ( winner dont quit )
- walk straight with pride.
- giving true love to the only ONE.

i learn something from here. n not to quit in anything. even getting someone that you love most. keep putting in afford. maybe one day you might melt her heart. but if one day, you manage to get hold of her heart, treat her well. because you are 1 step closer in achieving your goal. hold on tight n never let go. that is all your afford you already put in. if you let so, simply to say you are letting go all your hard work.

so in life, dont take someone you love for granted. if you love someone, tell them before you actually lose a chance to tell them that you love him/her. its never too late unless u stop believing in urself and worst still in our own love. but sometimes, courage is the problem and feared of rejection is the other. its not easy to tell someone that you actually have feeling for them. but when u believe the importance of the person in your life, your courage will remain strong.

just sharing some of my personal experiences. hope who's reading this will not do the same mistake like me. because of my courage, i did not tell her. but still wonder if she have the same feelings.. i wonderrrr. hope the someone she fall in love is me.

keeping my hopes high.
hoping it could reach the sky.
here i sign out.

2007-08-14T00:17:00.000+08:00

so today is monday. wat many ppl say MONDAY BLUESSS.. indeed it is la. see the way i dress to school jus now? walauweee.. jus grab a topman v neck t-shirt n 3/4 berbudas. but i think i look cool though? hahah...who cares? jus a 4 hrs of school only. aiyahhh so bored je. jus a revision week n next week study week. so no school but need to start studying already. check my exam time table last week n to my horror! my first paper will be on fri 24 aug at 7pm! no joke 7pm! walauweee... tink positive, got more time to study. but still WALAUWEEEE!!

after school went home straight cos feel too tired. on the sunday went for ride with my frens. 6 of us when to jalan kayu after our soccer. cos i drive. hahaha... back home at ard 10pm fetch my bro back. quite fun to drive la. but big car quite scary lorrr..but must get use to it.

to some i care for.

Tried believing in love at first sight;
but believe its over before ever tried.
Everything about her is so right;
but my courage is not there to fight.

Her love for her ex is so true;
even my love cant break through.
still holding on and never feel blue;
really hope the true love its "you" .

Everyone got its weakness;
mine is starting conversation with you.
i adore ur sweetness;
which you bring everywhere with you.

the feeling of love is so strong;
i hope u feel the same way too.
but i cant keep it this long;
still duno how to really tell you.

hope this will help keep us closer;
in getting to know each other.
every min feel like msg you;
but worried i will bored you.

its not that i forget about you.

but wanted to know if you miss me if i never contact you...

2007-08-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

HANYA DIRIMU

kenalinya dari seorang teman;

pertamakali berjumpa ingin berkawan .

wajahnya manis sukar dilupakan;

disitu mulanya satu persahabatan.

rapatnya ia tak pernah ku duga;

hati kini bertukar selera.

diri ingin memberitahunya;

tapi nampaknya dia belum bersedia.

masih menunggu bekas kekasihnya;

yang kini telah berubah.

lelaki BODOH manakah sanggup melepaskan;

gadis yg baik seperti dirinya.

impian sukar menjadi nyata;

walaupun ku cuba rapatkan diri padanya.

gegam tanganku dgn penuh harapan;

mungkin ini satu dugaan.

how i wish its easy to tell u this...

2007-08-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

kk. i'm back in action here. cos i already promise someone that i'm gonna update my blog if i pass my driving licence. SO YES I MANAGE TO PASSS!! wooohooooo!! damn i'm so happy. 7th August is a memorable day for me today. get my first driving licence. so i can drive ard rite now. so anyone wanna ride? hahaha.. damn i'm no pimp ya.

but 10 yrs ago. 7th august was the sad day. actually my grandfather past away. and we were quite close yet my worst so call enemy la. kekkee.. why enemy? cos i like to disturb my younger sis at that time till she cry. so my grandfather use to scold me for that. hmmmm... i can still wonder. n u guys know wad, my grandfather had same birth date same as me. SERIOUS!! no joke. hahaha... but in my heart i still love n remember him. 1 min of silenceee please..

k here i post some of my lastest pic. taken this mth or so.
go go go!!!...

2nd aug. that girl b'dae. kekeke..

have our dinner at pizzahut causeway pt.

jus me eating my soup. yum yum. hingga mejilat kaki.. kekkee..

okok. i'm not ready yet. fineeee...

this is wad we call " PESTA MUDA MUDI " wif the dig nose boy.

2007-06-02T04:40:00.000+08:00

okok. here i come again. some people angry wif me liao. kekeke.. sorry sorry k. been too busy this few months la. with all the blockbuster movie out. i need to work double than usual. single mid-nights every weekdays. n double mid-nights during weekend. that means i always work the night shift. n did all the closing. soooo understand understood la eh.

so many things happened lately. had few quizes which i dun really do well. manage to pass la. tapi cukup makan. why? cos i did not study. why never study? cos got no time n not enough sleep. why not enough sleep? cos usually i came back from work ard 3am. n my lesson at 9am.

gosh my eye bag getting bigger each day. haiyyyooo. i can do it.

so last wed was my ITE graduation day. yeah after 2 years finally i graduate. n i really miss the funny, step cool, blur sotong, abg2 lobang, abg2 gym, abg2 REMPIT. n lots more la. really did enjoy my 2 years in ITE TAMPINES. so its official right now. I'M A QUALIFIED ENGINEER!! hahaha...

got 2 award that day. LKY project award. plus $300 which is still in the process. n my MECATRONICS CERT. wonderful memories. its really a good thing la spending time n learning there. atleast i know how ite life is. can share with others perr..

ok tak nak byk songe now. its 5am right now. very sleepy plus catching a movie tomoro. scared cant wake up. so i finish off with some pics which were taken during before n after the graduation.

1/2 of my classmates. Other 1/2 GONE?

look i'm the second youngest. hahaha!! serious!

Friendship still remains.

were ask to wear formal but i'm the one who always wear "SELEKE" type.

before anything. take pics.

2007-05-06T05:53:00.000+08:00

here i come again. this week is the longest week i ever had. gosshhh i'm so damn tired. just came back from work yet still updating my freaking blog. so many things happen this week. one of it is that SPIDERMAN in on!! aiyoooo. the crowd is so crazy at cathay. if only i can take some videos and show it here. anyway i work 51 hours at cathay this week. i beat the full timer no. of hours. plus i'm schooling summore. i really got no time for my family n even for myself. haisss..

anyway we did put sometime for ourselves during our off day on thurs. we went for a movie at GREAT WORLD CITY. first time la actually. still a virgin there. kekeke.. work at cathay but watch movie at GV. not that we dont like la. but at cathay, spiderman movie were fully booked.
some pics were taken outside GWC after our movie.

so sat b4 start work at nite, 5 of us went for our " so call dinner " at bugis. ok i was late ok! but not that late wad. they want to meet at 4pm. but i left home at 3.50. reach there ard 5pm. not that late wad? rite? kekeke...they decide to eat at LJS. duno lah they all. after eating, as usual we took some pics la. sitting outside LJS n took pics. everyone passing by jus look at us. but we dont care at all la. we even want to ask ppl to take pics for ask. but were jus too paisey la. =))

did enjoy today la. cos crowd not that bad. quite relax. n i duno wad else to say. so let our pic do the talking k.

n i start working at 8. n fit start at 7. n the rest was at 6pm. so me n fit decide to jus waste our time by eating at BEN n JERRY la. eat some ice-cream. release our stress. but damn the ice-cream was power la. worth my $12.50. kekeke. u jus bought 1 set n share. all chocolate. n i call it " chocolate HEAVEN ". n late at nite, ard 2am, was jus too bored. so i did some i blended chocolate for some ppl. kekeke. just look at the pic la. u will know wad i mean. k i stop here. update next time.

POWER BEN & JERRY!! YUMMY!!

DON'T FORGET THE WHIP CREAM N CHOCOLATE SAUCE!!

2007-04-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

hey yo. its been super long time since i last wrote in this blog. and see some of the comment on my tag box. kekeke.. some even ask me to close down my blog. ok lahhh. sorry been super busy this past month.

ok so i've been accepted by TEMASEK POLYTECHIC as one of their student. what course did i join? ok this will be a long one. Electronics/Telecommunication/Computer Engineering/Microelectronics. in short jus ETCM la. today was the first day me joining TP. was great to be sure la. everything went smoothly. and only at some parts of the classes i came late. as usual wad. i tot i'm still in ITE. kekekeke....

met new friends. and i do some serious talking with them. kekeke. cos i skip most of the ice-breaking part. so duno my class mate that well la. just exchanging of phone number. and thats abt it la for today.

after school, went cathay wif the cathay peeps. peeps like Fit,Hana,Zul,Farouk,Irwan n Yadiy. yeah we watch Wild Hogs. the movie was SUPER FUNNY!! u guys must really watch it. seriously! we laugh till our stomach hurts. and among all the groups watching it, we laugh the loudest. hahahhaa. especially that farouk. siao... i give the movie 8/10. wa caya laaaa...

come let me show u some pics taken this past weeks working at cathay.

Me & Hana while waiting for our train. alahh manjeee nyee. kekeke

spiderman out soon. just promoting lah.

2007-02-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

what happen today. hmm...as per normal i'm late for school. but not that late i can say. only ard 1/2 hour late. not that bad rite. compared to some of my fren who came only for the last 15 mins. first lesson was suck. of cos who like to do programming. damnnnn... i jus spend my time listening to my mp4. at the same time cracking my brain. early morning summore. who can do the tinking sia.

during break time. went to TP. ask about the pre-poly form. but was told that it is not out yet. awwww...n they need all our 4 sem result. i only had 3 rite now. went back to school n jus slack in the canteen n wait for the time to past. talk rubbish all along. n look at ppl. kekeke...

n during my SW. after sooo long MIA for my SW lesson. at last i came back. hahaha.. was tinking of not doing anything during the lesson but when i saw floor ball stick n the ball, i start playing wif it. so we took 2 small floorball goal post n began making team of 4 ppl. all other classes were watching me n my class play. till every single one really wet our shirt. some even say i play well. hahhaa!! actually i duno how to play la. but i can dribble the ball pass my opponent. shhhhh.. dun want to say more.

n while playing, caught wif a crash n i dislocate my ankle. i really can hear my ankle SNAP. n now it still hurt. cant walk properly. n bit by bit it began to swollen. aiyooooo.. bad day la. hope it will be okey by friday. cos i got my car practical!! how to drive sia!. headache. =((

to someone.

dear u. i really duno how to tell u this. but really every moment i saw u, every moment i stand beside u, every moment i look in ur eyes, i can sense something. my heart beat faster den usual. but everytime i saw u, i can say it to u. i want to but felt that u will go far away from me. but now i tried to win ur heart. do anything i can. do everything i can.

n jus realise wat i need is u. ur presence mean a lot to me. u bring me joy n show me happiness. every moment we spend together, i will keep it in my memory. cos if 1 day, i cant win ur heart, atleast i know i tried my best to get to u. i jus want u to know this.

Only u i love;
Only u i care;
Only u i need;
Only u can win my heart;
Only u i want to be with.

end.

2007-02-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

hey. i'm updating here. last week was quite happening yet tiring week for me. work suck as per normal. n still enjoy school even though exam coming. gosh. w/o realising, i have only ard 5 weeks to exam and then graduate!! wohhhooooo.

but i think i'm not goin to NS though. wait long long ah tell them. kekee... continue taking my diploma den proceed to my NS. so many things happen at this school. all the ups and downs. enjoyment,laughter,sadness n of cos girls! hahas..

i came to the school single. n graduate wif my status still single. aint that cool or wad? haha.

okok guys. lets do countdown here. look like 6 more days to my birthday!! woohoooo..
i'm gonna be 19. so damn old. ishhhhh..

anyway. let me show u some video that happen last week.

the first video happen at SAFRA TAMPINES. as we got 2hrs break. we jus went there to relax ourself. n for me, i got nothing better to do. while playing the DAYTONA, i jus realise that the car got NOS install on it.

isnt that cool or wad? hahah..
the second video here happen at our project class. where this fren of mine go ard and disturb others. so me n my other fren plan to play punkd on him. so what we do is jus this...

to ensure his safety, we hold on his arm tightly la. although we let go of his hand at the third throw for a few second. kekekee... after the incident, he jus sit at the corner n jus smile...
so jus wait for my next update yar.. enjoysss n dont forget to comment on it.

2007-02-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

heya! wanted to update my blog on wednesday nite, but i was jus too tired to do so. hmmm..
where i go? to the stadium of cos. watch singpore vs thailand. 1st leg asean cup final. who won? singapore larr...so damn packed that day. full of singapore supporters. most of them wearing red and white. really like national day parade. but i think this is better.

match started at 8 but most of them came at ard 5. jus to get a good seats. after all this is the last match that will be held at national stadium. as it will be demolished mid of the year. i reach there at ard 6.30 and stadium was 3/4 full. and i only get seats behind one of the goal post. but what the heck. i still enjoy my day there. cheering. booing. shouting. all came out from everyone.

those were the moment every singaporean will keep it in their mind. difficult to describe situation at that time. but i did take some videos. kekee... so guys jus watch it. to those of u who had miss the match. i jus want to say this... YOUUU SUCKKK!! hahaha....

this was after singapore score their 1st goal.
goal was score by alam shah.

and this video when singpore was awarded the penalty.
but really the thailand player got no sportsmanship.

and this was when singapore score their second goal.
that was the winning goal for singapore!!

as u can see. fit was supporting thailand player. and was so angry with me. kekeke...
sorry fit if i made u angry. i dont mean tooo.. jus playing la. haha.

2007-01-26T01:14:00.000+08:00

hey! come lets update. wow! didnt realise that i've been sooo busy for the pass few days. with all the projects date line. haiyoooo jus sooo stress up. the dead line for my group project was last wed. cos that is when the LKY award were chosen.

so me n my group members sooo short of time. n our course manager really want our project to be working during the presentation. so he even give us permission not to attend our class for 3 days. he jus want us to concentrate on our project. so it really 3 days of HARD LABOUR i guess. I need to come out wif the design, programming the chip, soldering the chips, relays n wires. we really thought of giving up at the first place. but we are representing MECHATRONICS ENGINEERING. so we jus give it all.

so tues. we start working on it. from 9am till ard 5pm. imagine how many hours was that. plus i was rushing for work. get to rest only ard 1am. which continue the next day at 8am. n that was the presentation day. set up was made. the chart were decorated. n the project were ready at 12pm. video were taken during our first try out. see below. the drill work perfectly on the JACK. it lifted the jack. powerrrr deyyyy! so success i think.

to all my frens n lecturer, thanks for ur help n support!
we really appreaciate it.

so guys watch the video. think how our project could help other in needs. if they got a flat tyre n need to be change. they surely need our Automated Motorised Car Jack...
so comments bout our project yar!

2007-01-15T02:17:00.000+08:00

YOU

Your sweet smile weaken me;
your decent eyes melt me.
Your kind heart revive me,
your love didnt realise me.

You make me wonder;
what should i do next?.
I tried to think harder;
can our heart really mix?.

I'm so confused;
what should i do?.
I cant think of anything;
accept you.

Should i ignore you;
or just give u time.
I cant think straight;
my heart controls my mind.

2007-01-14T03:15:00.000+08:00

hey hey. saswan back in the house. ROCK STEADYYYY!!! wooohooooo...
goshhh.. so many people comment bout my blog never update. i felt sooooo honoured. as ppl like SHAHRIR came n visit my blog!! hahhaas!!! how should i start writing bout? okok i got it.

i start my new year wif a BANG! everything new. new resolution, new image, new girl friend? hahahas!! haven found yet. so maybe i can put that as one of my new year resolution?. cos i manage to be single for the whole year of 2006!! woooohooooo. 3 cheers for casanova!! now i'm trying to start new. forget bout wad happened before. its already past.

damnn. i really start my year wif projects. ok i rephrase my sentance. " i really start my year wif my LAST MIN projects." hahhas!! but quite nice wad. u rushing last min. get to sleep for 4 hours per day. got big eyebag. hahahs!! PANDA in the making. but now projects almost ready. woooohoooo again to me.

work and school. thats wad i always do. so wad did i do during school holidays? i work. i work like a full-timer. 46 hours per week. okey thats more than a full-timer. waiting for my pay day. n this year tooo really aiming to get my licence in my wallet ready to show the traffic police out there. hahaa!. starting my prac next week. my aim again. b4 this coming hari raya.

now lets talk about MOST TALK topic in my blog. about my love life. kekeke =))
dont worry. there's no more SHILA in me rite now. already alt+ctrl+delete. endtask everything about her. if that didnt help, i jus need to reformat myself. keke.. but seriously there's no more her. even though she left a big SCAR in me. time will heel it eventually. so no worries.

rite now, i'm just speading my life to the fullest. there's no one that i need to worry about. she's too look very happy rite now. nobody stop her. so best! both are happy wif wad we are doin. so guys dont worry okey?.

anyways now i'm so into her. damn did i make it so obvious now? i'm not sure about that. cos i treat everyone the same. but some jus told me that i treat her so damn nice. but... nahhhh. i dont want to put anymore hopes. when lastly there's no HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

2006-12-13T00:55:00.000+08:00

Something to be remembered

it started wif a teased;
continue by a smile.
den they began to missed;
even though they were not more than a mile.

technology doing its part;
messenges makes them closer.
promise not to be apart;
they began to understand each other.

their differences is the main thing;
she began to lie ti enjoy herself.
but when he knows everything;
she just need to blame herself.

he wanted to leave her;
but his love is too strong.
cant imagine if they really be together;
in the end, there must be something wrong.

letting the time do the wait;
finnal will be together if their love is true.
but is it worth the wait?;
for someone that already lie to you?.

faking here and there;
faking everywhere.
faking her love for him;
and now she's missing him?.

2006-12-12T01:08:00.000+08:00

so here i come again. everything new. deleted the old blog cause there's too many memories in it. so i think i need to start a new. wad do u guys think?? but my blog still not 100% ready la. will touch up at some part of it soon eh. u guys jus wait k.

tell u guys wad happen today. got lesson at 1 but dont feel like goin to school. bcos got no mood ah. rather stay at home sey. kill my time by watching ASEAN GAME at DOHA. hahas!! aint that cool. so bored. all got exam rite now...

so decide to go out catch movie wif farouk n shahrir. we watch DEJAVU. dont quite understand the story line la. but its quite nice. farouk angry sia in the theater. cos i never watch movie but msg FIT. hahas.. sorie ah! maybe thats y i dont understand the movie lah. kekeke...

to her. maybe its jus time for us to move on. u go ur way. and i go mine. cos we got so much differences. maybe one day, u want to change or sth. u jus tell me. maybe i can accept u back if there's no other girls open my heart.

like what people always say " if u love somebody, let them go. if they come back, they are urs. but if they never come back, than u are just not meant to be together."

to everyone:-

if u love someone, be true wif them.

cos lying n secrets is not the right way.

u enjoy ur life for one day,

but u hurt others for the rest of their life.