Nur Syazwan Bin Akram.

20 years old

12 Feb 1988

Student  @ Temasek Polytechnic.

 

since 05-10-07

<3 Nur Azreen Bte Johari

 

 
I am SuperWan. =)

 

vehemency

im going through lots of dilemma right now. so what should i do? to just let her enjoy herself. haiss. is it a wrong to like stop her? as in tell her not to come back late. im just worry about her safety. isnt that wad every bf will do? haisss. but to her im just being like her ex. trying to mess up her life.

n i noe she dont like me to complain on my blog. but this is where i always express my real self. i dont really go around telling people how i feel deep inside. even to my gf. cos when i express how i feel, she will think that im too much. stop her in everything she want to do. n worst thing is that when she herself told me im being like her ex. haisss...

wad should i do? being open n just see wad ever she do? yeah i can do that for sure. but my feelings for her will change when time comes by. and at the point of time, every single things just lost by the wind. i dont want that to happen. what i want is every mins, my feeling for her became stronger.

i want to cherish every moment with her. i want everything we do cause no harm to each other feelings. cant she just know abt that? taught me of "read between lines " but she aint do it. why oh why? why must this always happen to me?

if i cant stop her. cant say anything. den i think i should not be her bf. cos its like me helpless. cant even do anything. so the thing for being her bf is just meeting her once a week, we watch movie, go have our dinner & go home. thats it. and the rest of the days we are just smsing. not knowing wads happening out there on her side. why oh why??

im so damn stress up. need time for myself. feel like driving alone in the car n speed as fast as possible. maybe i should do that soon...

with my maths supp paper on thurs, i just dont want this block my mind. i feel like an arse rite now. i should stay strong i guess. so ppl out there. wad should i do? still stop n guide her all along. or just keep quiet n being stupid about it & keep every pain inside me...

i stop here.
& to her, im sorry if i complain on my blog.
done.