life is just like a box of chocolate.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007, 00:21

at this point in time, my mind is totally blank. there's not a single word in the dictionary can explain how i really feel right now. we turn so call ONE. there's no celebration or excitement that we actually went through it. but wif her at work after school. with me sleeping at home after school n eventually receive call from a friend n we went for a movie. thats is so call my celebration...

i might just be schooling n working my arse out this week. at first i took off on saturday. thinking of going out with her. but guess wad, she's working on saturday. i was really down when i heard she say that last sunday. its like there's no time for us. wif my manager kept begging me to work on saturday. so i just tink that it is better for me to work on saturday. den wasting my time at home doing nothing good?

my heart really shattered to pieces. n she told me her schedule will be pack this month. so i can only meet her in december i think. n its like 3 more weeks to go. so i shall countdown starting from now. 24 more days to meeting her. so i call my manager to just put my name for this saturday. cos i might just work rather den staying at home which will make me rather sad if i shall think abt it. so why not work n just enjoy the day with my fren which the day was really meant for my own girlfriend. haissss. my heart sank.

so my working schedule as follows :

wed -6pm to 3am
thurs - 9am to 5pm
fri - 6pm to 3am
sat - 6pm to 3am

its not that i didnt give time for her. i even requested to send her to work just to see her. but did she even ask me. " can i meet u ? " or even " can u send me to work later " . so i will know she really miss n want to see me. i'm really upset at the moment. i cant really think straight right now. so i might not me only for this whole week i guess.

here i'm putting in my efford.
just to put aside some time for us.
here i just get dissapointed.
cos my efford is not being appreciated.